Part 1 of ?: How life can evolve in unimaginable ways
Illustration by my son… Daniel
What I’m sharing here is solely based on my current understanding and is only my opinion based on personal experience. I respect that each person’s gender journey is unique and that there are many – sometimes opposing – opinions.
When we are born our gender is assigned based on our physical attributes and we are conditioned by our environment and experiences. I understood that I was a boy and believed I was to become a man. There was no other option. Anything outside of that was shameful and outright wrong.
Diligently I tried to prove my masculinity to myself and others, but it never seemed to work out. In fact, unknown to me at the time, it became an obsession. In short my close-minded thinking and egocentric behaviours drove me into addiction, which in turn fortunately led me to recovery.
I learned about and began practicing open-mindedness, embracing my feelings, seeking the guidance of my intuition, and then acting with courage. Sometimes the things that I was most uncomfortable with became the things that I most needed to do to get the results I wanted/needed.
Then, I came to realize what I’d unwittingly suppressed all my life – that I’m gender diverse. I had inadvertently found a new way to live that expressed my authentic self. I began breaking free of the expectations of others or as I learned – our domestication*.
In retrospect, it seems that this may be the point where my recovery from addiction evolved and became my path of transformation. My journey of inward and outward exploration has opened me up to a new way of life that I could have never imagined only a few years ago.
For me, there’s no other way to live now. Really, for the first time ever I’m living a truly authentic life the way that I want to and on my terms, which feels great!
I’m so grateful for those people that have been part of my journey and shown their support and encouragement. I live in a great community and appreciate our country very much.
I also realize that the concept of diverse gender identity is still foreign to some people. This does not, however, excuse intolerant and abusive…